a time for hate/dislike/unlove

It’s Christmas day so as I write this, it feels odd to talk about hate/dislike/unlove. Perhaps because Christmas is the day when every single human being on earth is reminded of Love. And rightly so. It is the time we all celebrate the anniversary of the birth of human tangible Love into our sinful world. How blessed are we!

However, I cannot help but reflect on what I experienced lately. I’m not sure what it is/was and I guess hate is a harsh word hence the “dislike/unlove (which is apparently a legitimate word)”. Recently, I felt someone in my life go from loving to unloving in a matter of days/weeks and I still don’t know why. I may never know why.

But what I do know is that, as much as it has broken my heart, it had to happen. There’s a time for everything. The funny thing is, this wasn’t the first time. In fact, it’s happened to me multiple times and I almost never see it coming. Until it’s finally here.

And I learn the same lesson every time.

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” Blessed Mother Teresa

It’s incomprehensibly true. I am sure that I have hurt God so many times. I have greatly sinned, in my thoughts and in my words, in what I have done, and in what I have failed to do. But He still loves.

With a broken heart, I will still love. Or at least I’ll try.